Attached or Addicted

Thank you, Thank you,....

These were the only words i uttered after my friends handed over couple of gift packs...actually i was speechless.If i say thank you,that mean they are not my closest pals...but i had to say something.

I was deeply moved by the way my friends are inclined to me n my family.I LOVE them,deep love. I guess this an addiction -addicted to friends,friendship,their love.

I am very much excited for my sister marriage.It gives u an amazing feeling when someone grows infront of u and leaves you all of a sudden.Her entire identity changes from surname to place,people,surroundings and what not.

My only pray to god or my jija ji is-take care of my li'l sister.

Sir....for wat

Laughing at myself after hearing something strange for which my ears are not at willing to hear at any point of time -"GOOD MORNING SIR" from my junior.
It gives a sense of pride when someone calls me sir but more than that its my deep regret and guilty feeling that WHAT I HAVE ACHEIVED for that 3 letter word.Moreover its a word associated to great personalities whose ordinary lives turned into extra ordinary. Im not fit for it.Im no way nearer to the word.
My understanding says that the respect should be earned butnot forced.
I wanted to spell out one more important change in me.Im back on track,not absolutely but steadily.Im able to concentrate lil bit but should improve alot on it.The reason to concentrate more is may be that im habituated to these problems/issues or found out other reasons for getting entertained my self.

Height of Betraying

Hey guys....after a along time im here to jot down my feelings where i can noway share it except with this electronic device.
This blog is dedicated to those to whom they think i have betrayed them for not revealing or telling them the replies they need jus bcoz they trust me blindly. Im loosing them gradually...my friends...my closest buddies. The situation prevailing is no more as i was in first yr. They do not expect dis sort of response from me.they perceive me as a transparent friend.I drew every possible boundary around me so that im not in limelight atleast not in dimlight.I wanna cry-cry as hard as possible and as loud as i can. I my self not able to understand why i have changed.
Don't know to what extent it continues or to what and how many pals i loose.
I must thank god or for dat matter dis college for giving me such a nice and understanding friends.Hope i don't loose them ever...never.

Last Lap

     It’s been a mixed experience, bad and good from the past couple of months. Good have an exposure of my subject and bad, it’s a bit boring. Spending at a place and leaving u need to have courage to do that. My office, especially two guys, I never ever forget them. They were hiding their tears,  I can observe that. There was some sort of gravitational force which was pulling me back on the last day of my SIP when I was walking towards the parking lot. My room , at which I stayed was even more of detaching emotionally. The time I spent in that place-one of my beautiful memories.

Time for the last lap of the race in my life-it’s The “FINAL” year  of my course.

FOCUS

Im jubilant.Im delighted.Im exuberant.Im in a Euphoric state.Im in very exciting phase in my life experiencing the all new dimensions.Vibrant energy is flowing through my nerves and veins from top to tip of my feet.The ridiculous part is im unable to share it with anyone-i mean i need a good companion for it.

   Time has arrived to really focus on my academics and my future.Till now i was very casual about it which i should wipe off from my grey cells.Though my SIP is bit boring,dis all depends on me how to convert dis into interesting one.

              Who ever reads dis blog, plz wish me all the best....... 

   

sip experience

Totally a different place,different people,different experience,and more than that lot of industrial exposure.this is my schedule this hot and sunny summer.its like going 2 office n spending there doing work n returning 2 home tired up...totally a different experience.But now i got to know about the entire process of a manufacturing firm.
        I have to appreciate my parents in this regard,especially my mom,she comes to home at around 7.00 pm leaving at 7.00 a.m and even after that doing all home related work-she'z superb.
        I am going through a lot of twists and turns currently and bewildered how to react to them.I am really clueless.Lets see,as time passes if anything goes fine and arrive at any solution....
     As of now i have to reduce my sleep drastically and increase my concentration tremendously.......  

Homeland,Sip,emotional atayachar

enthusiasitic,exuberant,jubilant.,,,,all mean the same and rite now im in this phase as im back home after a long gap as if i returned after 14 yrs as lord Rama did. the kind of welcome and attention u get as soon as u step in ur home is wat makes u feel blissful.Even if u had a world trip,the kind of excitement u get after reaching ur home land is undefined.The only feedback i got from my relatives and frns-people over there(noida) dont eat or wat???This was due to my Brucelee body(LOL).

  Before leaving the college i was beign dragged into "EMOTIONAL ATYACHAR".Everyone is leaving the college,giving sendoffs and taking the same,made my heart squeeze.

  Its high time to do a real hard work in my SIP and try to convert it because of not simply for getting a job but for many reasons.I have to dedicate my self and define my path in these 2 months.